I've been back in the studio for less than a week (2 days really) but I'm feeling renewed. This is my home and when I'm there I feel like I truly belong somewhere. It's the greatest feeling in the world.
Having this feeling makes it difficult to believe that in less than four months, I'll be leaving the studio for good. The more I think about it, the more I want to leave the city for graduate school. I was hestitant at first but I really have my heart set on Pratt Institute in Brooklyn for graduate school. Drexel University has an amazing program, and I will be thrilled if I get in. Lately, though, I've been thinking about what it is I really want. Maybe things will be clearer once I've visited Pratt and gotten to wander around campus in person.
Every professor I respect and trust, and many friends, seem to think that Pratt would be the perfect fit for me. I'm afraid of failing, but right now, it seems like I'm more afraid to fly than I am to fail.
I'm doing everything I can to change that attitude. On monday, I will know for sure where I stand as far as the Visual art association is concerned. Will I be leading the club? Will I not? For once in my life I feel confident enough to do it. I don't carry the attitude of "someone could do it better than me" around anymore. It never helped me, just allowed me to let great opportunities pass by.
I'm excited for all of the opportunities for artistic growth that are in front of me this semester. I haven't done anything with print making in 3 years and I have been waiting to take a class like this since I started my undergraduate education. I'm not used to the process of printmaking but I have so many ideas and I hope that I can carry them out. I'll be posting images from my process in printmaking as well as images of my final painting in different stages from start to finish. Wish me luck!